Life has not been the same since June 9th. The day my sister passed away. She had been ill and in pain for many years. In some ways it was a blessing since she is at peace now, and if Heaven exists, she has rejoined the love of her life and her daughter.
I am serving in the capacity of Executor of the Estate and there lies my excuses. Trying to get the house cleaned out, numerous sales, a large storage unit and lots of "stuff" so we can get the house sold. She would have qualified as a hoarder. I have been away from home a lot since the house is in Bloomington. Having my routine broken up by unpredictability, has given me the excuse to stop going to the gym on a regular basis. It has given me the excuse to "grab a quick bite". It has given me the excuse to eat out more often. These excuses have allowed me to give in to the evil sugar addiction that has plagued me for most of my life.
I have tried to put this on paper several times; only to delete every word. I don't make New Year's resolutions, so I made a Thanksgiving resolution instead. I resolve to "knock that shit off"! There is no excuse for me not to take care of myself. There is no excuse for me regain any of my hard-earned weight loss like I have. There is no excuse for me to turn to sweets instead of healthy foods.
Am off to a pretty good start and need to keep reminding myself that my continued health is worth the effort. Have been to the gym for the last four days, even missed the first hour and fifteen minutes of The Voice tonight. Have given in to sugar once. I was going to throw the last piece of pumpkin pie away, but ate it instead. At least I hadn't gotten whipped topping. I have gone back to "grazing" on several small meals rather than 3 meals a day. Grazing has always worked for me, I just need to take "road food" with me if I am not going to be at home for an extended period of time.
I am so thankful for so many things in my life, so Thanksgiving was the perfect time to resolve to regain control. The stresses will continue for some time, but it is up to me how to handle that stress. I resolve to handle it more effectively through exercise and better food choices. I resolve to do everything, well almost everything, I can to remain in good health and feeling good about life. I had hoped to add "stop smoking" to the list, but I am not there yet! Maybe a Valentine's Day resolution?